Always on the go

Recently I’ve been doing a lot of traveling, hence the lack of posts here, and it’s starting to take its toll. At the moment I’m still in Maryland; I extended my stay for a week so I could go through the rest of my clothes and mail my winter stuff to Naples. When I left I’d packed mostly summer gear with very little cool weather stuff so with the temperature dropping it was necessary to go through the rest of it. Of course it’s not like I have the best clothes anyway and most of this stuff I’d prefer to just get rid of but that’s another story.

Before Greg and I got married I would fly to Italy and stay for 3-4 months at a time. With only two long-haul flights a year I had no problem getting on a plane and dealing with the 8-9 hours of discomfort. In the past four months I’ve done four long-haul flights and I’ve been having a hard time with it. Yes, I know, the decision to fly back and forth was my own but that doesn’t make it any easier. Coming back to MD this last time the flight was nine hours and required us to fly around the remains of a hurricane. My seat was at the very back of the plane and to say it was bumpy would be an understatement. I’ve never been a fan of turbulence but it’s getting more difficult for me to stay relaxed through it. I hate that I have this anxiety, it feels like such a failing on my part. I know there are other people that don’t like turbulence but they seem to deal with it better than I do.

My logical brain knows what turbulence is, the problem comes from the lack of the control over the situation. I don’t want to be flying the plane but, I don’t know, I can’t really explain it. The other issue is the fact that we’re over water. Rational or not I feel like if something were to happen over land we could reach an airport relatively quickly. That’s not the case over the water. Taking a couple Advil PM helps a little because it makes me tired but sometimes I wonder if an anti-anxiety pill would be a better option. Either way I need to work on how I handle my anxiety.

I know some of you let me know on Twitter how you deal with flying anxiety but if you have any other suggestions I’d love to hear about them.